what am i trying to say???
what i've discovered with all this blogging is that it's really difficult to convey thoughts and ideas with the nuances of the english language to everybody equally. we use pictures and words to try to communicate with other people all over the world and the entries we post on our blogs give the reader insight to what we are like. you can also find out more about a person by the blogs they visit and the comments they leave at those blogs. but still, this may not be enough to truly understand how a person thinks and where their morals lay. i find it difficult to edit myself not because i want to be politically correct but because i don't want to hurt anyones feelings, make someone angry or make some feel bad. i definitely don't want to be hated by anyone. let me be clear, i don't have the typing version of tourette's syndrome but sometimes i might not come off sounding right. i always thought i was better able to express myself in written form rather than spoken word partly because of the ability to edit. the past few days, i've read some really intelligent & a lot of times very funny blogs written by seemingly ordinary people and have a renewed appreciation for them because i realize how difficult it really is. i have enjoyed them immensely and now look forward to future installments of their respective blogs so that i may gain further insight into the person, be mentally challenged and/or be made to laugh hysterically. that and i feel creatively stifled.
perhaps a break from posting my own entries is in order here...
posted by Lester T. at 11:53 PM
9 Comments:
It's okay Lester - everyone feels like that sometimes. I post my neurotic rants for a few days and then hide them as drafts. Blogs aren't like real life in that there is no tactility and people can so easily misrepresent themselves if they want (because no-one wants to be hated), but just like in real life the feelings are there behind the words. Sometimes it's just as hard to say what you mean as it is to write it...
sometimes you just have to moosh the keyboard as you let out a primal scream:
jkdsfyguvipahyrlnvln, chmflajknychaleknch!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then you can go on being cool.
6:23 AM
thats odd, because the mandate of my blog is to avert any hints of my true self at all.
i don't wanna be me. it's just too shamefully obvious.
11:06 AM
I see what you mean sometimes LT, sometimes, I feel like I have to put on a show or dance on my head :P
My blog was originally a transfer point for message board posts when I modded. But I feel I should just focus on more of what's going on around me and in my life.
Who cares what others think, it's your blog, do what you do. There is always the option to hide this blog from the public too if you so desire.
2:43 PM
ff: thanks for dropping by and the kind words.
while i realize that people may misrepresent themselves, i do not or at least, not on purpose. i guess the difficulty lies in what and just how much you want to reveal.
sm: thank for dropping by!
sure, different people get different things out writing their blogs and i totally respect that. it is fun to see what people will write when they can hide behind their anonymity.
m: for me, hiding the blog takes meaning out of having a blog in the first place. i think of it as a place to share your thoughts and ideas and then get some feedback from people rather than a straight forward diary. i'm particularily interested in what people think and have to say. and btw, i do keep dropping by your blog hoping to see a show. ;P
1:02 AM
I personally don't think that you need to take a break from posting. If there is nothing that you don't feel like indulging in. Don't... just go with the flow of things. I have learned that people will do what they want, how they want to, whenever they feel like it. I haven't been able to write in my blog for a couple of days because I don't have anything to say. I don't believe there is a tactful way of approaching this 'blog world'. You may think what you are saying is not "politically correct" while you may have a whole fan base who feels the same way you do. I don't see why you should hide how you feel or what you are thinking. I think life would be insipid and crude if we all were "politically correct" and were constantly cautious of hurting people's feelings. Yes it's an insensible thing to say... but that's the place that we live in.
I say let it all out! Have fun with it... Embrace the madness!
9:05 AM
jj: thank you for your words of support & encouragement. and my apologies for not posting back to you for quite some time. in fact, i have been posting comments on other blogs, but generally limiting my time to the blogging community lately. this is because i needed to spend more with stuff i've been putting off. turns out i should've gone cold turkey cos i seriously hurt someone with a dumb comment that i made. i just didn't think it through all the way because i was emotionally moved. the person sent an e-mail asking me to remove it but before i could reply (i was thinking long and hard on how i was going to reply), it was removed by the blog author. i apologized publicly leaving another comment and tried to explain a few misunderstandings. i was further reprimanded for my behaviour and i apologized again. now the entry does not exist and i feel just awful. i feel awful for having caused such a fuss. i feel awful because it is an exceptionally good person. this person may never post something so personal again because of what i wrote and i feel awful about that. like i told this person, i learned a huge lesson and hoped i didn't cost me too much. i worry it did.
how apropos this entry is to this subject!
4:49 PM
Hi
I left a msg in your other blog, not knowing that it was your business blog :)
Anyway, hi!!!
8:55 PM
wow! that's kinda funny how we both posted about the same thing.
weird.
9:08 PM
Everybody regrets. Everybody hurts and everybody sometimes hurt others. Sometimes humans are too sensitive. These are things in the natural order without cure or prevention.
I have a conscience that works overtime as well, Lester. Sometimes this makes my tiny problems into big ones. The fact that so many of us share these insecurities is reassuring to me.
All we can do is try our best - and those who try are the best people!
This too shall pass.
6:50 AM
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